Oh to make a decision!

When they said with age comes responsibility, they weren't kidding!

As a child I was one of those kids that never wanted to grow up. If I would have found me some pixie dust I think I would have flown off to Neverland and never came back. At any sign that I was growing up, I'd ignore the fact and continue with my child lifestyle.

Now that I'll be turning 18 this year, I realize why I never wanted to grow up. When you grow up, suddenly, your parents don't make your decisions for you anymore; you actually have to make them yourself! 

You have to understand that I am one of the most undecisive people on the planet. It takes me a lifetime just to figure out what i'm ordering at Wendy's! On top of being indecisive, I also worry about just about everything from wasting too much paper to questioning myself a million times as to when an event starts. Being worried and indecisive do not make for the best combination, and often lead to some anxiety on my part. 

Recently, I have been confronted with a huge decision to make. Two events that are very important to me are happening on the same week! One, is something that I've been looking forward to for a reeeaaalllyyyy long time. The other, is something i've worked extremely hard on and am not ready to just let go. So there's my dilemma, two very meaningful things happening at the same time.  I have to be honest, this decision is really stressing me out. I haven't decided yet, but I know that I need to trust in God. Even though I don't understand why, God does. There is a reason for this and I just have to trust in him. It's not easy, letting go of the worry, stress, and anxiety, but I just have to. At times, this is easy to put my faith in him; but, at other times, I can become overwhelmed. It's at the times when i'm overwhelmed with worry that I have to remember Matthew 6:27, "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"
Jesus is right, worrying isn't doing me any good. I just have to let it go and put it in his hands.